He is THE Game Changer

It’s been a couple weeks now since I was hit with the complete understanding that I am always going to have Pain. I remember how overwhelmed I was at the thought of Feeling Everything SO Intensely and not letting myself just shut it off all together again. I always thought that working Crazy Hard on my therapy would have the benefit of my mind and emotions calming down - that they would peter out and become bearable with time. But that was never the case. What I have been working towards constantly is raising the bar for what I can handle. My Pain Tolerance is going up as well as my ability to function through it. I will always be Broken - and that’s ok. It's going to be more than ok. For God specializes in contradictions and after today - there is no doubt in my mind that a Broken Tool is the Most Useful for His line of Work. I shattered today more times than I can remember. And although my ability to see through Truth as my mind breaks and the screams won't stop is hazy at best -- my Faith in Him will NOT waver. I am His, He is MINE and NO ONE can take that away from me. Not even the Pain. I will survive this World as I look forward to the next. Not just survive it though - I will Thrive in it. I will do this at His behest. Because He Loves me. And that was the Biggest Game Changer of my Life...not to mention the Entire World as we know it. Thank You my Lord -- for Grace.